The Renewal

With weighted lids and a heavy sigh,
My eyes close on their own,
Forcing me to that far and desperate place
In the Sodom and Gomorrah in my heart.

Vivid pictures, all too real,
Flash like slides on a screen
Through the darkened haze of forbidden thoughts
In the Sodom and Gomorrah in my heart.

Guilt and longing, joined as one,
Invade the silent moral code –
So deeply imbedded, yet so easily betrayed
In the Sodom and Gomorrah in my heart.

Curiosity, perfumed with reasoning,
Justifies the destruction,
And sin and secrecy exchange their vows
In the Sodom and Gomorrah in my heart.

The acrid stench of shame and disgrace
Drenches the halls of my soul,
And stings the eyes of the One who dwells
In the Sodom and Gomorrah in my heart.

Sacred tears fall onto floors of dust,
Pooling muck and mire around –
Drowning my cries that echo unheard
In the Sodom and Gomorrah in my heart.

Then gentle words come from lips of fire,
Power and light shoot like stars,
Piercing the rock of unbearable pain
In the Sodom and Gomorrah in my heart.

Like shards of broken glass, filth crashes down
From the brokenness just begun,
And torrents of rain flood every canyon
In the Sodom and Gomorrah in my heart.

A clear lake glistens, calm and silent,
Replacing caverns of endless depth –
Where my flesh once dwelt in shadows
In the Sodom and Gomorrah in my heart.

Waves of forgiveness lap the shore of my soul,
Stirred by the Breath of Life,
And standing still on the water is the One who dwells
In the Garden of Eden in my heart.

With rested lids and a peaceful sigh,
My eyes open…



*written by Sarah M. Fox on 1/27/98*